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the untold story..

assalammualaikum w.b.t..

it's early in the morning..maresmartian get up and preparing themselves to school..i've already take my bath and ready to school..then one of my fren came.."warden nk jumpa"....silence..

there's so many things in my mind..trying to figure it out..what's it?i dunkow the answer..grab my tudung n hurry to see warden downstairs.."awak siti nor akmal?" i'm nodded.. "ke ada akmal lain?" "setahu saya saya sorang je siti nor akmal cikgu.." "abang awk ada tunggu kat pak guard..ada sesiapa sakit kat rumah?" "ayah ada dulu sakit tp dah baik.."oh my...that's question nearly bring me to a final conclusion..but still,i tried to calm myself..

boys still in the surau near the pondok pak guard performing their subuh prayer..and i..alone..walking to search for the answer, why my brother is here right now..from malacca to taiping at this early..there he is...with kak long..

after salam..kak long hugs me..then tears streaming down her cheeks..and i..still silence...not saying even a word.."abah dh takde adik.." "bila kak long?" "maghrib semalam.." i just stood there, not knowing what to say..i'm not giving any reaction at all..it's like a dream..

it's he coming back?nope..he leaved me when i wasn't there..at home..when i still struggling for my SPM..he would never coming back..to see his daughter hold her medical degree as he dreamed for..to see me as a doctor..

and i..wouldn't have any chances at all to give him my first salary..and here i am..in medical school..to fulfill his ambition..to make his words come true.."abah dah tak lama adik..abah kira rasanya adik ada 9 tahun lagi nak habis belajar..amek medic..abah tak sempat kot.."that's was his last words that i remembered until now..at that moment, i've no idea that would be the last thing he would ever say to me just few months before my SPM..

tiada siapa pun terlepas dari kematian..kematian pasti datang menjengah walau kita masih punya perkara..agenda hidup yang ingin direncanakan..namun, adakah persediaan untuk hidup kekal di sana kita sempurnakan? apakah perkara yang sudah terlaksana itu memadai untuk melepasi langit yang pertama?

diri ini masih bingung..masih mencari..ya rabbi..ada kalanya turun naik..adakalanya berhidup seumpama kematian itu tidak akan terjadi..bantulah kami ya allah..the most gracious..the most passionate..thanks for everything My Lord..guide us oh Allah..THE ALMIGHTY..

al-fatihah buat ayahanda allahyarham abdullah b. mohd zain, 7th january 1952-22th june 2005
terima kasih abah..doaku sentiasa buatmu..

*Live every act fully, as if it were your last*

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Monday, May 24, 2010 at 5:57 PM , 0 Comments

assalammualaikum w.b.t..

uish..sangat lama tak menjenguk blog..last post was on 26th February..almost 2 months.. busy actually..starting from february, prepare for exam..final phase 2 professional exam on 21st march..then a week after exam...result came out and alhamdulillah me n my best girls passed :)

proceed to next phase..clinical years with more challenging and experience as a medical students..learn more about how to manage patients in clinical setting..am i ready to face it?still feel not knowledgeable :(

A week after result was announced..i was admitted to HUSM, prepare for orthognathic surgery on the next day. sekarang dah lebih 2 minggu post-operation..1 week after operation was the hardest time:( alhamdulillah now dah boleh makan walaupun just blended food..weight loss dah taktau berapa kg...hope everything gonna be fine:)

1 week post-op my face bloating up!swelling..scars on corner of my mouth..n my face changed a bit...hope my fren still recognize me.


whatever it is, sangat bersyukur atas semuanya. banyaknya nikmat kurniaanNya..ya allah walau banyak dosa dan maksiat kami lakukan dalam kehidupan ini, kasihMu sentiasa mendahului kemurkaanMu..

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Friday, April 23, 2010 at 7:49 PM , 2 Comments

~sharing is loving (◕‿◕✿)~

Five Reasons why Allah SWT uses problems:

The problems you face will either defeat you or develop you – depending on how you respond to them. Unfortunately, most people fail to see how Allah wants to use problems for good in their lives. They react foolishly and resent their problems rather than pausing to consider what benefit they might bring.

Here are five ways Allah wants to use the problems in your life:

1. Allah uses problems to DIRECT you. Sometimes God must light a fire under you to get you moving. Problems often point us in a new direction and motivate us to change. Is God trying to get your attention? “Sometimes it takes a painful situation to make us change our ways.”

2. Allah uses problems to INSPECT you. People are like tea bags…if you want to know what’s inside them, just drop them into hot ever water! Has God tested your faith with a problem What do problems reveal aboutyou? “When you have many kinds of troubles, you should be full of joy, because you know that these troubles test your faith, and this will give you patience.”

3. Allah uses problems to CORRECT you. Some lessons we learn only through pain and failure. It’s likely that as a child your parents told you not to touch a hot stove, but you'll probably learn by being burned. Sometimes we only learn the value of something - health, money, a relationship..by losing it. “It was the best thing that could have happened to me, for it taught me to pay attention to your laws.”

4. Allah uses problems to PROTECT you. A problem can be a blessing in disguise if it prevents you from being harmed by something more serious. Last year a friend was fired for refusing to do something unethical that his boss had asked him to do. His unemployment was a problem – but it saved him from being convicted and sent to prison a year later when management’s actions were eventually discovered. “You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good…”

5. Allah uses problems to PERFECT you. Problems, when responded to correctly, are character builders. God is far more interested in your character than your comfort. Your relationship to God and your character are the only two things you’re going to take with you into eternity. “We can rejoice when we run into problems…they help us learn to be patient. And patience develops strength of character in us and helps us trust God more each time we use it until finally our hope and faith are strong and steady.”

Here’s the point: God is at work in your life – even when you do not recognize it or understand it. But it’s much easier and profitable when you cooperate with Him.“Success can be measured not only in achievements, but in lessons learned, lives touched and moments shared along the way.”

Allah Knows Best. Wallahualam.

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Monday, February 22, 2010 at 8:08 PM , 0 Comments

RanDoM ThouGHt..

assalammualaikum w.b.t..

lamanya tak menulis..as usual..kemalasan yg menyelubungi diri..haila..what happen to you akmal??
sometimes i do muhasabah diri..thinking of myself..the changes.."metamorfosis" diri yg amat merisaukan..i just look up into the time frame..time frame of my life..the growing chart..there's something wrong somewhere i guess..

the climax of the "enthusiasm" when i was 18..everything then fluctuating when i've got myself into a comfort zone doing medicine in uni. science of malaysia..1st yr is really tough..the fear of failing the professional 1 exam..study like there's no other way..n then it's going down..aiyoo~

now u are turning 22 this year my dear..n ur professional 2 exam just about less than 1 month..plz get on the track back..plz!!

Kalau kamu tidak tahan lelahnya belajar, maka kamu akan menanggung perihnya kebodohan. (Hendaklah belajar dgn sungguh2 krn tdk ada orang yg dilahirkan berilmu. Ilmu itu hanya diperoleh dengan belajar(ibnu mas'ud) [ i luv sunnah]

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