LUKISAN KEHIDUPAN

Oh my god!then i know..yeah i'm wasting my time studying because, the knowledge i gained before..gone....so,try harder akmal!

i've not update my blog for so long huh:( year 4 really hectic..currently i'm in orthopaedic posting which is so interesting..in my point of view, medicine isn't so difficult actually...but...there's always butsss..hee..it isn't difficult if i've master enough my basic sciences during 1st year course. ortho commonly just straight forward to get the diagnosis.some of the cases you will get just from the history. if master enough the anatomy,it's easy to know the site of the lesion from examination.

again..rasa sangat marah dengan diri sendiri..as time goes by, i had a feeling...that i can't really focus on my studies. i can't stand sitting for a long time and study! i didn't know what's the main problem with myself right now.is it environment?friends?study? but i do believe, it's just me....

tolonglah rajin......just talking to myself:( haisyyy....

just another random thoughts, hari ini kita sihat...kau,aku masih muda..tulang sihat,otot kental...tapi...ada sorang patient ni..a chinese man,in his 50's said in the clinic in his kelantanese dialect..dulu saya muda,angkat banyak barang-barang berat..n now i had lower back pain with numbness..kita tak tau masa bila kita sakit,masa bila kita mati...at that time, i just smile at him and looked into his eyes..saya pun akan tua pakcik, atau...saya takkan sempat tua seperti pakcik,sebab mungkin esok lusa ajal saya, siapa tahu..

kadang-kadang saya fikir, saya juga taknak hidup lama sampai saya tak dapat berjalan..i've seen many patients in the ward, bed ridden...knee amputated..no matter above or below knee amputation..some with complication, ulceration due to bed sores. tapi,semua tu bukan kerja kita..DIA yang sentiasa berada di atas menentukan semua...dan kita hidup hanya untuk beribadat padaNYA..dan saya...masih tercari-cari...cahaya dalam terang, kegelapan dalam malam..saya dan kamu...kita sama sahaja...atau mungkin darjat kamu lebih tinggi di sisi DIA ya rabb..doakan iman yang turun ini tidak tersasar, moga terus sedar dan sedar..dan bantulah kami ya Allah...ingatan ini untuk diri kamu dan saya...

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