the untold story..

assalammualaikum w.b.t..

it's early in the morning..maresmartian get up and preparing themselves to school..i've already take my bath and ready to school..then one of my fren came.."warden nk jumpa"....silence..

there's so many things in my mind..trying to figure it out..what's it?i dunkow the answer..grab my tudung n hurry to see warden downstairs.."awak siti nor akmal?" i'm nodded.. "ke ada akmal lain?" "setahu saya saya sorang je siti nor akmal cikgu.." "abang awk ada tunggu kat pak guard..ada sesiapa sakit kat rumah?" "ayah ada dulu sakit tp dah baik.."oh my...that's question nearly bring me to a final conclusion..but still,i tried to calm myself..

boys still in the surau near the pondok pak guard performing their subuh prayer..and i..alone..walking to search for the answer, why my brother is here right now..from malacca to taiping at this early..there he is...with kak long..

after salam..kak long hugs me..then tears streaming down her cheeks..and i..still silence...not saying even a word.."abah dh takde adik.." "bila kak long?" "maghrib semalam.." i just stood there, not knowing what to say..i'm not giving any reaction at all..it's like a dream..

it's he coming back?nope..he leaved me when i wasn't there..at home..when i still struggling for my SPM..he would never coming back..to see his daughter hold her medical degree as he dreamed for..to see me as a doctor..

and i..wouldn't have any chances at all to give him my first salary..and here i am..in medical school..to fulfill his ambition..to make his words come true.."abah dah tak lama adik..abah kira rasanya adik ada 9 tahun lagi nak habis belajar..amek medic..abah tak sempat kot.."that's was his last words that i remembered until now..at that moment, i've no idea that would be the last thing he would ever say to me just few months before my SPM..

tiada siapa pun terlepas dari kematian..kematian pasti datang menjengah walau kita masih punya perkara..agenda hidup yang ingin direncanakan..namun, adakah persediaan untuk hidup kekal di sana kita sempurnakan? apakah perkara yang sudah terlaksana itu memadai untuk melepasi langit yang pertama?

diri ini masih bingung..masih mencari..ya rabbi..ada kalanya turun naik..adakalanya berhidup seumpama kematian itu tidak akan terjadi..bantulah kami ya allah..the most gracious..the most passionate..thanks for everything My Lord..guide us oh Allah..THE ALMIGHTY..

al-fatihah buat ayahanda allahyarham abdullah b. mohd zain, 7th january 1952-22th june 2005
terima kasih abah..doaku sentiasa buatmu..

*Live every act fully, as if it were your last*

Monday, May 24, 2010 at 5:57 PM , 0 Comments

cacing 3 kilooo..

assalammualaikum w.b.t

lapang sebelum sempit>>that's the phrase! cuti 3 bulan ni saya tak rasa banyak benda berfaedah yang saya buat di rumah:( TV pun dh tak minat nak tengok mcm zmn muda2 dulu..hee...layan la jugak drama-drama kat tv3 cm she wolf n sayang cendana..hee~ pastu tgk uber cup badminton... kalau dah start tgk match esp badminton n football agak semangatla jugak.. paling best tgk time hafiz hashim lawan..mendebarkan! hee~ but most of my time rs nya...makan,tdo..baca buku nye semangat kejap je..heee~ naaa...wht am i babling about nih?????aiseyyy..hehe... bosan sgt,bored to death??nope2..hee~bape banyak hee ntah..hee~

Actually i just read an email...know what?? 3 kg of worms in the intestine of a child..i've seen worms came out from my cat's nose..my sis pulled it out..warna putih,if not mistaken round worm...white round worm..yuckss!then when i'm in med school..i've learned there are plenty of worms...from flat to round..then even tape worm lah kan..hee~ n those creatures will cause you various diseases and side effect if..if you breed them inside your body..hehe..n now i'm just babling again..hee~
just nak share these pictures..kepada ibu bapa di luar sana..watch out! jagalah anak2..give them advice n train them to keep everything clean..basuh tangan bersih2 before makan, pakai kasut kat dalam toilet n so on..simple isn't..but many problems could rise if not take it seriously..

bak kata consultant dalam APA-APA AJE pg td..we used to hear "practice make perfect" but now we should take it as "practice make permanent"..according to a study as he said..jika kita buat sesuatu dalam masa 10 ooo jam we would expert to do it..it takes about 3 years if we practice it 8hrs daily.. if we keep doing something for 8000 hrs in our life time, kita hanya boleh sampai tahap bagusje..but not expert in 'that thing'..

so, as a conclusion..parents should be the 'coach' that could train their children in whatever..be a coach that could give them advice..be a good role model, hopefully they will imitate the 'good things'..ecee i'm talking about parenting skill lah..hee~ erm kena banyak belajar..ilmu juga kan even not having children lagi..hehe..but really hope readers could take something even it sounds like alaaa "common things" je kan..sharing is caring:)

"practice make permanent"


Thursday, May 13, 2010 at 11:41 PM , 0 Comments